Trivium by Amber Nguyen

Author:Amber Nguyen
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: young adult science fiction, young adult romance, young adult dystopian, strong female protagonist
Publisher: Two Sparrows Publishing
Published: 2018-03-23T00:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER ELEVEN

ETHAN­­

I BLEW IT. I tried too hard and failed. I don’t have much experience in the romance department, but clearly throwing every romantic gesture and quote I’ve ever read all together was not a failsafe way to get the girl. Movies and books lie. I should’ve known better. I think I did know better but ignored all the alarms going off in my head. It’s amazing the things you’ll say when you’ve experienced love the first time and are desperate to not lose it. But I did. In my moment of desperation, I have a great certainty that I lost the girl. When I saw Cassia in my dreams, I couldn’t get over that feeling I had of being with her. Granted, I didn’t know then that she was real and as wonderful in person. Even then, I had this feeling like my life could be so much better. That she would make me be a better person. But quoting Pride and Prejudice, who talks like that? Austen screws with the minds of girls, thinking men today are equally full of charm and integrity and wit as her love interests. I don’t think they were really like that even back then. I tried to be witty. I tried to be sweet. It was over-the-top, but I was working on borrowed time. What choice did I have?

How far would you go and how dumb would you act to win the affection of a girl you only know in dreams? But they were real. I know they were, and she admitted as much. I don’t know how it’s possible. I’m not a scientist. And for a writer, you’d think I’d have the ability to come up with my own words, instead of relying on stealing someone else’s. She didn’t want me to contact her today. I can’t stop pacing my room. I can’t stop fidgeting. I’m torn between throwing something and screaming. I know that too much stress could trigger one of my headaches, but I’m not concerned about it. How can I feel so much for her?

Can I go to the Trivium in a few weeks and choose her myself if she didn’t choose me? Is that possible? Would she be a choice? I was crazy enough to tout the s-word as a real possibility for us. It would explain our connection. My heart pounds quickly in my chest, and the light in my room seems to be brighter than before. I know this is the start of a migraine, so I need to calm down. I hear ringing behind me and know that sound signals Jason calling.

“Hey, Jason.” I sit on the edge of my bed, still fidgety.

“Ethan, you okay? I thought I should check on you since . . . well . . . you know.”

“I’m fine.”

“You don’t sound fine.” I take in a deep breath and exhale quietly, trying to regain my composure.

“I’ll be fine, Jason. Thanks for checking. Have you . . . never mind.”

“Have I heard about Cassia? No, not yet.

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